yeah, counselling can be crappy.
everyone tells you to go because it will help, you get this idea in your head that it is going to fix things, wait ages to actually get an appointment and then you go and it is a bit of a disappointment.

People say it gets worse before it gets better, but like you I'm still in the worse bit and it is not nice.

I'm only new so anything you might be worried about having done in the past, I have no idea but you should stop worrying about it (I know easier said than done)

Anyway I feel for you, try to hang in there a little bit longer