Okay this will be long so bear with me
Back in january i had an attempt that left me half dead but i was found before i died. I went to the hospital and talked to the psych people and they said i was fine after i was fully healed medically. I was released in the end of february. At first i was doing alright but after a while i became depressed at times. I know that depression is one of my diagnosises but i want to be able to go a week without it. This week ive been having bad dreams and ive been having depression almost every night. I know that is common for me when i am off my meds but i have been taking them regularly. I have informed my caseworkers and they havent done anything. My t just changed my once a week appts to twice a month and my pdoc lowered my meds and due to things out of my control i am unable to take my meds at the scheduled times. I feel like i am losing control but yet this time i am unable to get help even though i am asking, something i havent done before. I am trying to stay out of the hospital but i am worried that my pdoc wont listen to me. My old pdoc left the agency i go to and this one changed my meds without even asking me how they worked. I feel like he wont listen to me when i meet with him on tuesday. I am also worried my t will get upset with me for not trying harder to get help but when i call any crisis line they always talk about supports and coping skills. Well my supports might get mad if i wake them up at two am in the morning and my coping skills havent been working. I just posted on self injury forum but i realized i might need to post here to. I just dont know what to do and im sliding down into a dark hole