Hey Jinny,
Well I never read the Jessica posts as far as I can remember, but I wouldn't hold them against you -- I know I've written a few threads on here where I wished afterward that I'd created a whole new forum identity before I'd written them (assuming we're allowed more than one username which I don't know about) because I knew people might look at me differently after them (or take offense, etc.). Sometimes it's hard. My T is trying to get me to be less careful about the things I say, so no doubt I'll be offending people in the near future if I take his advice.
Therapy's really hard in the beginning especially. But hang in there. You'll find it helpful eventually. I'm glad you've gotten in!!!
Sidony