Hello guys it has been a while since I have posted and a lot of things have happened and I have changed in ways beyond my wildish dreams. I have never before had this backbone before I was a submissive person that let guys do whatever they wanted to me but I started standing up and defending myself against them when I feel the need too. I had so much rage and anger inside me and I wanted to rip this guy apart before realizing that I had redirected my anger on him because I felt he was doing to me what the other guy was doing. So, I was projecting on him that he was using me and playing me for my body without thinking, hey do I have actual prove or am I just overthinking and placing my insecurities of past friendships on him. That was when the anger finally disappated though I am still unhappy because I don't want him to think he can get anyway with being arrogant and rude to me. However, I have no control over others actions I can only account for my own actions and my actions are simple lay low and continue focusing on school because I am already close to a breakthrough. In friendship front still isolated but at least I have made some pretty close friendships through school. I just have to continue with this new found backbone I have found stand up when I need to and sit down and shut up when I need to listen to a new perspective, take in people's advice and not be so on the defense all the time. Everything in life is slow progress and this is just a start on a new way of seeing life and living life