I haven't even gotten out of bed yet and my mind has cycled through guilt, shame, worry, and emptiness already, and last night someone replied to an off site thread wondering if I might have an undiagnosed disability that's affecting my ability to find a job.

In other words, my landlady might have had a point about my needing psychiatric help. The center was closed Friday, and I'm posting here to give myself reason not to wimp out and not go. I already have this notion that they won't be able to help me, will just give me generic advice and kick me out - the fact that I'm not great at expressing myself out loud doesn't help either.

But! I'm going to stop by anyway, and see if I can get a walk-in appointment.