Hey, Polypoppy! Congratulations on your first post!

First of all, thank you so much for telling us all that's in your mind

The cause of depression can simply be all chemical and biological. In this day and age, our food and water lack the most necessary minerals, and is processed and filled with stress hormones and fat-storing hormones. For men, as we age, our testosterone (The hormone that lowers stress for men) levels dramatically drop and we suddenly become moody and will not be able to focus and feel successful, and as I said before, we get hormones from food that will make that worse, like estrogen which will make us connect more to our feminine side and we start to have strong emotional reactions to problems instead of using our logic to solve them. On top of all that, without a doubt, the workplace will get us more stressed by increasing our cortisol levels. And that will simultaneously effect our women, and they will feel uncared for and unloved, dropping their oxytocin levels, which is the hormone that lowers their stress once increased. So, when she gets stressed as a result, it increases you stress, and then the whole world is just completely unbalanced.

Our bodies are not supposed to have this significant drop in our most important hormones, but like I said, today's world will exhaust the body's natural ability to make it's hormones or simply makes it more difficult.

And of course, like you said, being different also has a big hand in stressing you and dropping your serotonin levels, and as things keep on going south, things will start to feel impossible to change or fix. But, now comes your part, which is how to use your difference to your advantage. Make the best of it, use it as a driving force, because in most cases, difference is a great quality, it means you are more likely to come up with original ideas that really might change the world's perspective on things

Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with us, and never apologies for writing too much! And I agree with your psychiatrist, I too suggest sharing your thoughts and expressing yourself to people more often, because I think it's ultimately a good thing!

Good luck! Here's some hugs