i have had a lot of trauma in my life but it is one ocassion (probably the least traumatic actually) which I often find myself ruminating on. I have a lot of deep rooted anger and resentment over it. Whenever something doesn't quite go well or as planned in my current life I automatically blame it on the event. All too often do I ask myself 'what if it never happened?

My own doctor has explained my OCD to me as being the coping mechanism or crutch to dealing with my PTSD/Anxiety