i've been trying to read more on these things...

im really starting to feel like im having dissociative amnesia...
i can't recall any memories and i cant form any new memories and i just feel like im sitting still in time while everything else moves around me...

what do you do about dissociation and amnesia...?
this stuff scares me so bad because im worried i have a brain tumor or something...
i want to go to the doctor but i cant until i get insurance... i just hope that i can make it that long...

i cant remember when the memory loss started... i've never been good at that stuff... but it just seems like its gotten alot worse...
and its making me feel so disconnected from the world