I am on the same page with you.
I struggle talking, even when I do I always regret it. I don't know what to tell you. I feel guilty too for being like this and being a burden to all around me. It's not like I don't push myself, I do but I keep falling back as soon as I stand.
People say hang in there, that's what I am doing right now. I don't know why or for what I am waiting. Time has stopped for me.

We are in a land of nothingness, well at least we are not alone. We are together but struggling alone the same fight over and over again.