I don't want to do this anymore. Everything feels so consistently overwhelming, and I just don't know how to react to anything anymore. I still feel depressed, nearly constantly. Friday will be 4 weeks on the wellbutrin and I feel nothing. And now there are physical problems as well. It feels like my body is attacking itself, which I guess it technically is. But it's manifesting in ways that I just don't know how to handle. I'm scared to go to a doc to have anything checked out, because if it's really bad I just don't know what I'll do. I keep thinking about how easy it would be to just give up and end everything, but I don't really want to die, I just want to stop feeling this.