(((((((((((((((((((lots of love back all)))))))))))))))))))).

I am doing better today. I honestly don't know what that was all about. I felt so out of control, it scared the silliness out of me.

I had my intake appointment today. My t came with me which was great. I loved her comment to the worker, "I have walked through all of this with Elizabeth, I am over protective of her I know, but she is part of me." The tears stung my eyes and I wanted to reach out and hold her. I often wonder why I deserve such commpassion.

So my new t will be phoning next week. And I am feeling better with the fact that I can finally start to get rid of this, or vent this stuff. I went back to my t's office. There were a few others I knew having coffee. I was laughing the entire time I was there. I had tears pouring, so funny those ladies are. Felt good to be out in the world of laughter. Before I left, my t grabbed me and hugged me. I told her how much she means to me and am thankful to have her.

HEHE; guess what I did though. I got to my appointment, put the car keys in my coat (which was laying beside me), got out, locked the door, shut the door; Then I looked in the car with my coat looking back at me with my keys in pocket. Opps, my bf had to come rescue me. Oh well, was kind of funny.

Thanks for the kindness. I hope I didn't startle anyone. The racing thoughts were extreme last night. This was a safe place for me to vent, but I hope I did not upset anyone. I would have reached out before doing anything; really I would and will if need be.

Justy