I'm in the same boat as emgreen. I have progressively started drinking more and even though I have not admitted that I'm an alcoholic. Went from socially to wine, to a big thing of wine, to Fireball whiskey and now beer and I don't mean just one. I have a hard time going to the store without picking up some "tall cans."

I know it's in my blood and my extreme personality. I don't have an answer for you OP. I wish I did because I'm struggling with the same question. I know the answer yet I still question. I am thick skull'd.

I am going to a women's church group tonight. I am not a big fan of organized religion, but I think I need to start building my own support network because I do not have my parents in my life. They are addicts and I've steered away from any type of relationship with them. I think I long for a sisterhood of sorts to fill the void that has been created since childhood. Sorry for the rambling. Back on topic. lol Hugs to all.