Hello everyone,

I am not sure whether to post this here or not, given the wide range of my diagnosis's, but I'll go ahead anyways as Bipolar Type I is my most recent. I am just so confused right now as to what I actually am. Throughout the course of my life I've been diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic, diagnosed with psychotic depression, and most recently as a result of one of my last manic trips that landed me hospitalized, bipolar type I. Right now I feel almost as bad as I was before medications. Meds have been a big help for me, but it feels like they've crapped out right now. I've since young experienced severe derealization but its been really bad today. So bad I feel like I'm dead. I feel like a zombie with no control over myself. I was wondering maybe another depressive episode or not, but tbh I'm not sure what category of diagnosis I fall in. Tbh if I was to diagnose myself I would probably say maybe schizoaffective as recently I have been hearing the voices again at night, but I definitely have a mood part disorder. I just feel like one big f up sometimes, like I'm so screwed up I'll never get it together. Then again, maybe I'm just stressing over my college finals too much. Just want some other persons insight into what may actually be wrong with me.

Regards,

Bigmike727