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Old Apr 11, 2016, 04:31 PM
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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul View Post
about the wellbutrin (well any antidepressant i guess) it seems to take a little longer for you to start noticing an effect... they always say 4-6 weeks but it could be shorter or longer i think...

i can tell that im taking the wellbutrin now (4months later)... im able to roll out of bed atleast, before i started it (and waiting for the effects) i was so depressed i couldnt eat or talk or anything... i went atleast 5 days without eating anything in feb.... lost 5 pounds too.. which isnt such a bad thing but maybe its not a good thing to go days without eating

to me the effects i feel from the wellbutrin are quite mild.. but i can feel there is something there... i think of it as little soldiers being placed throughout my body fighting the depression monster... sometimes cant really tell how the fight is going even if you are winning...
but i may be feeling like this because im halfway losing touch with reality as one might would say

through all the stuff i have been through, before treatment, and all the child hood stuff... i reflected on it for some time and around 10-13 years old something flipped inside of me that was kind of like a patience switch... i used to not be patient at all and would have rage issues if i was confronted... now i am the opposite... im so patient it annoys people... and very rarely have any anger or rage show to anyone outside of myself...

my point is i think patience is really important, just as important, if not more important, than is the medicine... know what i mean?
i have bad time perception so weeks or months will go by for me without really realizing it.. but i think that patience is an important part of the medicine making adjustments to the chemicals and stuff...

it just kind of reinforces my idea that we are not really our bodies and we exist outside of the body... just we are "bound" to this realm and physicality... so i guess i might just be completely nuts or maybe im on to something

just gotta try to be patient ya know.. be gentle with yourself during the beginning phases of starting meds... theres chance it could help greatly, even make all the symptoms go away, and there still the chance that it wont do anything, or make the symptoms worse
depends how your body uses the drug i guess

i would say if another 3-6 weeks there is no signs then maybe need to try something else, but i would personally keep taking the wellbutrin and add an SNRI... cymbalta was pretty ok for me side effect wise... it also used to treat fibromyalgia in some...
since wellbutrin is an NDRI it might synergize each other if taking with ssri/snri
i was on alot of antipsychotics too and depakote so i couldnt really tell what was doing what

really sorry that you are having troubles... sorry about my ranting, im a little foggy currently i guess
Thanks. I wish I could be gentler with myself, but I guess I'm just getting so frustrated with not being able to function at the level I was before, so it's hard to do. And then I get mad at myself for waiting so long to ask for help, because I could've been feeling better already. It seems like most everything I've been offered for help isn't going to be useful by the time I get it. Like medical leave at work, reaching out to t when I'm in crisis...even reaching out to my pdoc when I was having problems with meds. It just feels useless right now.

I feel like some of that should give me reason to look for a new t/pdoc, but I just can't even begin to think about that. I can't imagine the strength I need to start over right now.