Just putting this out there, my husband died last year from a drug overdose (not suicide as far as I can tell) and it's the absolute worst pain I've ever been in. It's gotten better but the ache is always there. If you ended your pain, you'd be bringing on unspeakable pain to your wife and kids. My son has to grow up without a father now and that just kills me.

I've been where you are but the thought of my family, especially my son now that my husband is gone, has kept me fighting. Hang on and it will get better. I've been in the blackest depressions and always come out of them. I can't see it when I'm in it but hope IS there.

Seriously, hang in there. It WILL get better.