I too often doubt my traits or symptoms. I'm usually either flat down depressed or hypo, but I can only recall one time I was full blown manic and that was long before meds. I also have BPD so I often think drs are just confusing my symptoms. And then there's years I self medicated so if I was having any symptoms then, they were drowned out by the 20 drinks per day lol.

As far as meds go, I've just recently had it drilled into me by pdoc how important med compliance is. And because of my lack of care and tendencies to decrease, increase, or stop meds altogether, I think doc has lost my trust which is a huge deal. Now I fear I won't be taken seriously in the future and that all suggestions by me will be dismissed. But I did this to myself. So yea it's important you trust your medical team and take meds as they are given. I'm just now getting stable again after playing around with doses ect.

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