I'm sorry you've had that experience and that you are in pain from it. Any forum like this one that one or another one has occassions when opinions and even tempers flare. It's unfortunate that those things happen.

Try to relax and just let this place minister to you right now. Try to put the events over there aside for a time and let this place distract you for a while. It will take time and you will likely never feel 'righted' and one day that will be okay with you. For now it is what it is. Lousy and unfair and finished.

I've almost been where you are at.... left a site before I could get banned. Well actually I went back for one last hit and that did get me banned. I would like to turn back the clock and try the whole incident over but that can't happen so I've managed to go on. At the time I was very impassionrf as it sounds you are now. It was a very big deal at the time. It triggered all kinds of BP/BPD stuff.

It took a long time for me to stop missing that place. I still miss my friends there and always will. Some I email but many prefer only the boards. I will always miss them. I came here like you to try again. To find new friends. To be a part of someplace new.

I wish you well in overcoming this experience. I welcome you to PC on behalf of any one of us who has walked in your shoes. I doubt we are alone. I know we aren't cuz a couple of others caught in the same incident as me are here too.

Everything in life is a learning experience. I'm less volitile this go round and more accepting of other points of view. If I can't accept another person's position or if I feel too angered or frustrated I just fade off to somewhere more healing and helpful to my intentions.

I'm here to aid my recovery as best I know how. I'm here to be a comfort, an ear to others. It's good medicine being here with folks who relate, who offer kindness and support and who like me want to keep moving forward with a life filled with hope and promise.

Be at peace..... it becomes you.......