Hi All,

I'm new here. I was looking for a website about the mind and anxiety and I found you all. I've been suffering from some anxiety about the future, health, death. It's probably been going on for more then 3 months now. I'm not sure if this triggered it or not but over the summer we had my teen age daughter's hips xrayed because one leg is just slightly turned in. We went to a specialist but it turns out she is perfectly fine. I had all this anxiety that her hip displasia as a baby hadn't been corrected. I had a full blown anxiety attack before we even took her to the specialist. I feared major surgery or who knows what. Thank heavens she's fine. I've suffered thoughts of death, going to hell because I'm not a good enough person and worried about the fact that half my life is gone and I need to change before it's too late.

The current crisis is my husband who had 5 moles removed by the dermatologist. We won't know until next week the results. I've had horrible fear that I am going to lose him. I even began to imagine my life as a single Mom. I either can't sleep at all or wake up in the middle of the night with my heart racing, worrying. I feel like my life is on hold until next week. I can't stop feeling like either I am going to die or someone close to me and can't shake it.

This is nutz and I don't want to feel this way anymore. I wish I knew why I am feeling this way. I did lose my Dad 3 years ago this past May. Maybe that's part of it too, I just don't know. I'm hoping maybe someone else has gone through this at some point in their life and can maybe give me some advice. So sorry for the long post. I just needed to share all these crazy feelings. I just want them to go away and feel at peace again. Thanks for reading my post if you made it to the end. MK