Thank youfor your kind words and sound advice. I wrote this thread almost 2 years ago. I have tried talking to my Daughter, only with have it made very clear I am not to call or come around. my letters have been returned. Not a day goes by I don't feel that deep pain of loss. Now I found out I have a new grand daughter. That she has moved still living with his mother. I don't know when she was born or what her mane is. I cant explain the deadening of my soul I feel.