To be honest I never put much thought into who I trust and who I don't. I think I have always looked at others in a sense that they cannot do much to me as I have been wired to not accept failure. In the case that something does seem to not work on my favor than my poison comes to life to make sure I walk away feeling triumphant. Now writing this I see how silly that seems. Understand that prior to working on self this was normal. The way it was and all I understood. To your question I still don't think much in the sense of trust probably due to the feelings of (leaving blank on purpose). You get my point!! What I have realized is that in a social sense I am weird. I don't go out much anymore. When I was younger I was nuts to go out with. Always loud and getting into trouble that was lots of fun at the time. Since getting older things have changed. I am no longer the loudest, I have probably become a very boring person to hang out with lol. I think in my aging I have come to not caring much about entertaining and feel that people can't get me. So when I do go out people talk to me about all the nonsense people normally do and I just can no longer put the face on that people expect. Even with the things I speak of as far as dark, sadness and pain I still enjoy my own thoughts too. They understand me better than anyone ha ha. So to sum it all up, trust is needed when wanting more that what I want from others. I guess I just don't care enough in making relationships with others anymore to even need to think about trust. Not sure if this makes sense but it is what it is!!
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