Things are going. Thank you for asking. I have stopped some medicines I have been on and feel exactly the same. Have yet to find my cure. Although I just started a new one that seems to have a lot of positive feedback. I am looking for peace, to not feel the struggle at all times. I do now attend church again to try and gain it spiritually but it's still a work in progress. I suppose the constant echoes of my mother play a big role in my issues. My father passed two months ago and she is still up to her same old same old. My sister too plays a part in the issues that go along with our beautiful family structure. The one good thing is my brother had awoken and has finally seen the things I have spoken of for so long. I am just greatful for my own family, my wife is my true savior. The one who I have put everything into and allowed myself to be me with. 16 years of marriage and I have learned so many things from her. We have had our issues as most marriages do but the resolve we have for one another has allowed our relationship to grow stronger and stronger with each passing year. I am lucky for having someone who gets the real me. Who I can tell my darkest thoughts to and she understands and more importantly doesn't judge. In retrospect I am a narcissist who has learned to be a better person for at least my wife. I look back and see that I have done things as much as I didn't want to and it has made me a better husband. All I can say is thank god my kids have her or they too would be messed up LOL!! Well that's were I'm at now. Thanks again for checking in.