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Originally Posted by Hairball
I feel really bad for what u are going through. I had a rough start myself and I was kicked out at 16.
Are u in AA? I have heard they are very caring and supportive.
U left your good paying job, but are u still working somewhere? how are u making ends meet if u don't mind me asking.
Is the relationship with your bf codependant?
Please hang in there hun people here care!!
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Yes, I left my good paying job due to chronic pain and mental frustrustration with everyone out to get me cause I'm 52. Doing wonderful for 19 years...and then the **** hit the fan. I took it for 7 years...and finally had a nervous breakdown. Now...I'm afraid to look for a job (honestly)...since I wasn't maintaining a pretty easy job...how will I maintain another job? I applied for social security disability...much to my dismay..I waited a year before applying for it....and I'm into the process almost 2 years. I do get a disability pay from my old job (but they will not pay past June if it is ONLY for mental illness)....
My relationship with everyone is CODEPENDENT...and I know that....and I have been co-dependent for many, many years...probably after getting kicked out so young...that with abandonment issues which is why I break up with everyone FIRST. But, I was in a 22 year domesticly violent situation too...so with getting my head beat in (I have a crack in front of my skull)...drinking...and regular life things (plus my youngest needed open heart surgery)....TOO much stress in my life...I feel like it is all catching up.
I was raped 2x when I was younger...one of those times I bore a son...so I am unable to tell him who his father is....it goes on...and on...
I know a lot of it is in the PAST....but I never stopped to think about a lot of stuff till I left my job....and then with drinking on top of it...I have myself into a pretty deep depression right now.
Thank you for caring!