First of all, you are NOT a freak, and you are NOT alone. I hope this is ok for me to share, but I have alopecia, which is the opposite problem where almost all of the hair on my head fell out, and I was left with patchy hair. None of the treatments worked, and I shaved my head. Like you, I've never met anyone with this problem and I know the loneliness, and the pain of feeling "different"or feeling like a freak. I think it's a form of grief and trauma when you witness these changes in your body that, frankly, can be pretty disturbing. I want to make it clear that I'm absolutely NOT implying my case is worse or something, but the issue is that what media and cultural values dictate about women is that if we have too much/not enough hair, and only in certain places on the body, we aren't considered "beautiful", "sexy", "feminine" etc. which translates to the message that we aren't valuable. And it's a heaping, steaming load of crap. People say things like "everyone has things they hate about themselves." They're absolutely right, but it can be different for us with actual health issues that cause these "abnormalities" because we have to deal with this on top of all the other poisonous, misogynistic messages about weight, breast size, body shape, and aging to name a few. The point is, you are SO much more than your hair and your appearance because you are a whole human being. While it's perfectly healthy and important to feel great about your outer beauty, your inner beauty and your confidence is what matters most. However you feel right now is perfectly ok, but I promise with time you will find acceptance. There are so many guys out there who will love you for WHO you are, not WHAT you are, and your desire to marry and have a family is very possible! Sorry for the long post, but I hope at least some of what I said helps, take care!