i was wondering;
if you have co-host and 2 are working the body... what would that feel like?
would one be more dominant in the mind while one is more dominant in the body?
would you feel 2 ways at the same time? even opposing emotions?
are these really the symptoms of dissociative disorder?
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The symptom profile of adults who were abuse as children includes posttraumatic and dissociative disorders combined with depression, anxiety syndromes, and addictions. These symptoms include (1) recurrent depression; (2) anxiety, panic, and phobias; (3) anger and rage; (4) low self-esteem, and feeling damaged and/or worthless; (5) shame; (6) somatic pain syndromes (7) self-destructive thoughts and/or behavior; (8) substance abuse; (9) eating disorders: bulimia, anorexia, and compulsive overeating; (10) relationship and intimacy difficulties; (11) sexual dysfunction, including addictions and avoidance; (12) time loss, memory gaps, and a sense of unreality; (13) flashbacks, intrusive thoughts and images of trauma; (14) hypervigilance; (15) sleep disturbances: nightmares, insomnia, and sleepwalking; and (16) alternative states of consciousness or personalities.
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The Spectrum of Dissociative Disorders: An Overview of Diagnosis and Treatment - HealthyPlace
i have all of that
how come a doctor has never tried to talk to me about this?
is it just that i never presented any symptoms of dissociation?
it seems everyone i talked to doesnt really grasp the gravity of what im trying to explain.. the last psychologist sort of did though i think.. he said that these issues are severe - and that i am very interesting person, but he didnt recognize dissociation? is it possible that why he diagnosed me with somatization and ptsd?
i was in the mental health clinic for like 4 years... dunno why they never noticed the dissociation... i know i was out of it atleast a few times, if not 100% of the time when going there.. but i guess i was still self medicating back then too..
i need a break
i dunno, i wish someone could just see all my symptoms so i can stop the madness - but seems like i hide alot of the symptoms for some reason... when i get in the doctors office you know? its just hard... i guess thats why i tried to write everything down, but they wouldn't read my notes or take them seriously.. no wonder i quit seeing them
as well as they diagnosed me with bipolar
i have no mania... although sometimes my mood is different... the doctors probably dont know what to think about me
i hope they dont think im just making a bunch of stuff up due to some inconsistencies or something... the last pdoc already put on my file that i was non-compliant... but if you ask me he was non-negotiable... wouldnt listen to me at all..
reading alot of interesting stuff... i cant wait to talk to a doctor about it..
im gonna spill the beans this time; hopefully its sometime this year...
so i can get an answer to whatever is happening inside my mind... and hopefully it doesnt make me go completely insane... like self destruct
i really would just like to know what is going on, that way i wont be so confused and doubting everything... have a name for whats going on so i can stop fearing the unknown and maybe come back to earth and try to work on getting better
:/ geez i write too much, why cant i say what i want to say in fewer words????