Hello Elektra: I'm sorry you are in so much pain. OMG! I guess it's just my opinion... but I don't believe what your mother thought while she was pregnant has anything to do with how you feel about yourself today. From my perspective, that's just (excuse my French...) poppycock! Besides... how does this so-called therapist know what your mother was thinking when she was pregnant? That is just ridiculous! Sometimes "therapists" just make me SO MAD! I hope you don't buy into this drivel!

I'm so sorry you are feeling so alone & unloved. But I'm glad to see you write that you're not thinking about killing yourself! I would like to send some warm thoughts your way with the hope that you will be able to find deep peace somewhere within...