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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul
yeah even though people in my family have mental illness they still dont ... empathize?
its always about having it worse than the other, know what i mean?
so i just dont talk about it with anyone either
the shame and guilt sucks... i just keep trying to remind myself that i didnt choose all this.. and that this mental illness is not who i am, but only something affecting me right now...
and i try to keep in mind that things can get better... if i fight hard enough...
if i fight hard enough anything is possible right?
so we just have to stay strong and take it slow and steady
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I think my problems right now are just really scary for me, and it's making it harder to not feel shame and guilt. The first depressive episode I remember having was in high school, so like 10/11 years ago or something. I still struggled through college, but didn't get as down for as long in that time. And then I spent the next 6 years almost doing fine on my own. I wasn't seeing a t or anything, just dealing with life on my own. But now I'm just sinking deeper and deeper, and it's scary. And maybe there's an ego thing going on too, that I could handle life on my own for so long and now I can't. I don't know. I just ramble when I post here, I don't know what I'm talking about.