like when you see other kids interact with their fathers and how safe they are with them. that's the kind of father you deserved, but never had. i know. my dad is my abuser and i never felt good around him. when i saw kids with their dads and having the relationship that i never had with my dad, it brings tears in my eyes, because i know i deserved to have that. just thinking of ideas in how to help with that. if it didn't, hopefully, it helps someone....