Hi! First post, it is a long one. Bare with me...

People can tell that some of us are a little different than the majority of people you meet. Some people love it and celebrate our differences. Some find it bothersome or fake or scary or they just forget that it's there, despite your reactions. Everyone must make accommodations for everyone.

Ya know how in that movie Rosemary's Baby they screw with poor Rosemary's mind until she looks crazy, while genuinely being tormented by these devils? Then people can always say, no, no, she's ****ed up, give her back to us!

That's sort of what's going on at work. Then after simply messing with my head for a while (they know I have mental health issues, I'm not ashamed) that has evolved into a bullying mentality that has spread through most of the office. That's when I applied for another job.

After 2 months of torture, they suddenly got really really nice last Friday around 10:00 a.m. I'll never trust them again.

The scary thing is, as perfectly stable and happy as I was even just after the first huge big blow up. I was literally screamed at and I stayed disturbingly calm. But now, a month later, my anxiety is getting worse and worse, day by day. I was doing so good!

I have to rebuild my strength and self-confidence of over a month of building mental chaos daily and defending myself and being yelled at.

Now the good old stress-induced bipolar obsessive paranoia has kicked in. Yuck.

Talk to me people!