Hey otherG, sorry you're having a rough time.

I totally suck at this sometimes, but practicing self-care and self-love is essential at times like this. Cut yourself some slack, and praise your efforts last week in all the awesome things you did. Was a big step forward from the sound of it.

Couple steps forward, maybe a step back. Keep moving forward though, this isn't a setback. It's just a little rebound pang from all the good stuff you did last week.

Keep us updated on what you do tomorrow. I believe in you and think you can do one or more of the activities you did last week, tomorrow. Good luck and enjoy it

PS. I might sound overly positive and simplistic. I know that dark hole and place you refer to in your post, though don't directly name it. I had a depressive episode last year and it was the worst experience of my life. I can not describe the pain I suffered. That I'm alive is a pretty cool thing. Might have worked out different; I'm glad it didn't.

Do not give up. Ever. You are a wonderful one of a kind gift to the world.