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Originally Posted by elevatedsoul
i was wondering;
if you have co-host and 2 are working the body... what would that feel like?
would one be more dominant in the mind while one is more dominant in the body?
would you feel 2 ways at the same time? even opposing emotions?
are these really the symptoms of dissociative disorder?
The Spectrum of Dissociative Disorders: An Overview of Diagnosis and Treatment - HealthyPlace
i have all of that  
how come a doctor has never tried to talk to me about this?
is it just that i never presented any symptoms of dissociation?
it seems everyone i talked to doesnt really grasp the gravity of what im trying to explain.. the last psychologist sort of did though i think.. he said that these issues are severe - and that i am very interesting person, but he didnt recognize dissociation? is it possible that why he diagnosed me with somatization and ptsd?
i was in the mental health clinic for like 4 years... dunno why they never noticed the dissociation... i know i was out of it atleast a few times, if not 100% of the time when going there.. but i guess i was still self medicating back then too.. 
i need a break 
i dunno, i wish someone could just see all my symptoms so i can stop the madness - but seems like i hide alot of the symptoms for some reason... when i get in the doctors office you know? its just hard... i guess thats why i tried to write everything down, but they wouldn't read my notes or take them seriously.. no wonder i quit seeing them as well as they diagnosed me with bipolar  i have no mania... although sometimes my mood is different... the doctors probably dont know what to think about me i hope they dont think im just making a bunch of stuff up due to some inconsistencies or something... the last pdoc already put on my file that i was non-compliant... but if you ask me he was non-negotiable... wouldnt listen to me at all..
reading alot of interesting stuff... i cant wait to talk to a doctor about it..
im gonna spill the beans this time; hopefully its sometime this year...
so i can get an answer to whatever is happening inside my mind... and hopefully it doesnt make me go completely insane... like self destruct
i really would just like to know what is going on, that way i wont be so confused and doubting everything... have a name for whats going on so i can stop fearing the unknown and maybe come back to earth and try to work on getting better
:/ geez i write too much, why cant i say what i want to say in fewer words???? |
in general only one alter can be in control of the body at one time. that said many people with DID have whats called the revolving door. which is rapid switching based on each alters sense of agency.
example if I was at work and something triggered me Jane (not real alter name just using this name as an example) would take control to answer the phone, a clap of thunder and another switch and rainy was now in control to handle going to the window and shutting it to block out the rain storm, boss sees me and oh crud a meeting another rapid switch and Yeeha takes control and walks in to the office for the meeting, meeting over and someone smelling like alcohol walks past me another rapid switch so that Andrea can take a break and walk outside ...
how come a doctor never tried to talk to you about it...well theres a saying here in my location. treatment providers are not mind readers. if you want them to talk with you about something you need to tell them you want to talk about it.
dissociation is a feeling. feeling numb, feeling spaced out, feeling disconnected. unless you wear a neon sign saying Im feeling spaced out, or Im feeling numb most times treatment providers are not going to see it. you have to tell them what you are feeling.
my suggestion is print off your post and show it to them. they will be able to explain to you why they never talked with you about this and why you are not diagnose with any dissociative disorders or why you are either way.