Gee, the next day and no replies.
I feared I shouldn't have posted here.........
it's just...I was so hoping that someone would have something to say, support/advice....... I've never ever stayed at a job long -- anxiety and feeling bad when I don't remember something that I should know-- either person or event or task.......
I really really had hope that maybe-- finally-- I could turn this around and figure out how to deal with it instead of running........
*sigh*..... I'm sorry that I intruded..... I shouldn't have came here.....

I knew I didn't belong...
mandy