well, I sunk into depression after a breakup.. it was unhealthy. I used to be resilient. not anymore. 3rd time with depression. started a new job, the day I got dumped, I was unemployed for a while. an ex co worker that I briefly worked with died of cancer the same day, he was my boss's son. he was 30. cancer came by and swept him up. it made me feel sad and selfish for feeling the way I do. it made me realize I was alone now., Im over here complaining about getting dumped ... I think it's hard to bottle up the feelings but I have to put my best so I don't get canned. I have school debt, etc. I catch myself sometimes ripping at the seams.

the irony is my job is non profit and tailored towards promoting mental health early prevention. it's not the demographic I fit in for services. I'd like to do sliding scale at my clinic but they book monthly appointments and well I have 3 months worth of bills past due.