thanks amanda
i didnt even see your post... or i didnt remember reading it...
i know enough now to atleast throw some crude messages to the doc when i get a new one...

i dunno what i feel like honestly, i feel like a deck of cards being shuffled sometimes
ie: constantly in motion and never really retaining any hardcoded places or whatever...
like the deck is always present i feel aware most of the time, its just weird... its hard to explain...