Even though I'm on neither side of the spectrum right now, I feel like garbage mentally. I'm having paranoid negative thoughts and a lot of anxiety. Sometimes I feel like "well deal with it" because this is as good as it gets, and you just have to bite the bullet on this one. I feel like I'm "settling" for a mix of negative emotions rather than dealing with the way ups and low lows. But just as in relationships and marriage go, no one should just settle.

Now I realize that my meds aren't going to do EVERYTHING for me. They won't clean my house, fix my PTSD, or pay my bills. I have to do a lot of the work with therapy. I'm trying but the waiting list is long right now. Maybe once I get there these other emotions will settle down. I don't know.

Am I always going to feel uneasy tho for a minimal sense of sanity? To be quite honest, I wish I was friggin hypo right now. I'd sure as hell be replying to all these new threads on here if I was lol [emoji106]

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