i think its good to ramble, i mean i have to think its good because i do it so much.. if i thought it was bad thing i would make myself mad all the time!

to me these things are scary... especially when they progress further and further and treatment feels like its not really helping

stress definitely makes things more challenging... so i try to try not to ruminate on things.. try not to stress about things.. and steer clear of any stressors in general

its so sucky because its so easy to say things that would help but its so hard to do those things which just kind of turns into a "vortex spiral of doom"(is what i always called it)
so end up just spiraling deeper and deeper because its like a domino effect..?
i dont really know how to get out of that vortex, over the years i've just gotten used to "sailing in the storm" i think

i just try to ride it out usually i guess... go with the flow in a sense, because fighting the current wears me out...
but apparently i have a dissociation problem so i can just leave the world for undetermined amounts of time? but thats another problem

do you look at the clock alot? if you do maybe you can try not looking at the clock/time.. i hardly ever look at the clock anymore because when i did it felt like time was standing still..