Hi Elektra,

Absolutely childhoods can shape people, and I'm reading that that was "pretty tough" too for you, I'm sorry
And I can completely understand how not feeling or being shown love can have you believing that you're unlovable, and although those beliefs can sometimes be SO hard to change, it still doesn't mean that those beliefs need to be true..........that you actually are unlovable. But........I completely respect that those beliefs can feel so very real
And as for the way people have treated you or not stuck by you as true friends, that really doesn't have to be a reflection of how lovable you are
You're right maybe your childhood has had something to do with it, but if so, maybe more in the sense that you don't expect enough from people having less self value or you find it harder to set boundaries (stuff like that) meaning less worthy people have found their way into your life and not stuck by you............it certainly doesn't all have to be about you, it can be about the people who have been in/walked out of your life not deserving to be there anyway
But finding the right T can help a lot with issues caused or antagonized by childhood, true it might take A LOT of work and support from others, but don't give up hope on yourself, hey??
Things don't always have to be this way

Alison