My dissociation can be scary to me. Sometimes it's not so intense, other times it's more distressing. I think I'm still afraid of a flashback happening, like I experienced with my counselor. It was really hard for me to piece the fragments back together, after I realized something had happened. I don't fully remember driving home - just bits and pieces. I know this is being afraid of something that may not happen, but the thought is there that it could happen, and I would be in a group of people I don't really know, instead of a safe place with someone I trust.

If I could just get a handle on it, before it happens I would feel braver!