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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
Do you have a T?
I think you could use one.
Most of your posts (if not all) have the general theme that you should be different to what you are. Filled with seemingly unfounded self loathing and loads of adjectives used to berate yourself.
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I say this because I am concerned as to whether or not you are actually getting any kind of helpful feedback from your threads or from people offline...
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I can promise you, I'm not consciously trolling. Most of the time, never when I actually make a thread. I wouldn't write paragraphs of running commentary on my panicky thoughts just to screw with people.
I should be different than what I am. No, I don't like myself; never have really. I've always wanted to be someone different (someTHING is a weird new development, partially born of trying to face fears).
Nothing ever seems to satisfy me for long, either because I find routes around it to keep self-loathing because anything else feels wrong, or because I can't... integrate these new modes of thought, I guess. I don't know what's wrong with me. I also don't know of any other way to be.
Oh, and no, I don't have a T. Combination of money problems, poor communication, and distrust. Though I think more and more that I could use one, if they really can cure me. Or give me something to shut up my brain (which is now running with a pejorative-filled explanation of the "reality" pills would force me to adapt to...).
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Originally Posted by Out There
1 ) That makes no bloody sense. 2 ) You found a " cool " paper suggesting this whole body disgust thing is generally an outgrowth of a simple mortality fear. 3 ) It's a little " Out There ". That's my user name  . Well , I'm not offended - I'm chipping away on my own little Magnum Opus. You're probably where you need to be right now. |
I didn't mean to offend, I guess I was kind of frustrated.
I sure hope this isn't where I "need to be", because being disgusted with yourself ain't fun, let me tell ya.