I've wondered how you've been, it defeinitely has been a while since I've seen you post. I'm so sorry to see that it has been difficult for you since then. I don't feel comfortable telling someone that he or she should go back on their meds because let's face it. We're all grown here and can make our own decisions. But as you've learned, there will be some horrible side effects from quitting cold turkey.
Now a new diagnosis can be scary. I know with my initial diagnosis I was questioning everything. Why? Why are you putting this label on me?? So I can see how that would be a lot to take in considering it came out of nowhere for you. As long as you're safe, I don't see why you would need to go IP, but out of concern for you, I think it would help if did go to a doctor to make sure there aren't any serious issues that need to be taken care of as a result of the withdrawal.
If you're unable to trust anyone, I'm glad you trusted this community for sharing your story. I truly hope you feel better. Welcome back, and please take care of yourself. Keep in touch with us and hopefully your spirits will lift even just a little bit.