Fried: I think as soon I started having the compulsions: getting up and down in chairs, going in and out of rooms, and repeating tasks unnecessarily, I knew I was acting in an unreasonable manner. These things are not things "normal" people do. People around me did not do these things. Intense inner anxiety MADE me do things that made me LOOK weird. I did not WANT to look weird. But I HAD to do them.