Right? I work in an office, a place where you have to smile and be happy all the time and sometimes that's easy and other times I stand there listening to people jabber on about stuff and I'm thinking wow I can't focus on what they're saying I'd rather be asleep I'd rather be dead

Hi

For what it's worth, I'd rather you be alive. I also don't think it's depersonalization you struggling with.Maybe people tell you you have a beautiful face because that's really what they see even though it's not what you see. Please don't scar up your face, there's certain thoughts that we should just not listen to...