Hey RCAT, keep pulling out all the stops and you can hopefully intercept things. Maybe go ahead and call MD and/or therapist and try to get an appointment in the next week. You can always cancel it if things improve and your concerns lessen. I get you when u said you fear falling into Depression. Maybe meds just need tweaked a little, maybe some behavioral things need tweaked a little. It sounds like this is relatively new and that is the best time to intercept it, in the very early days. Reach out for help when you need it and be kind and loving to yourself.