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Originally Posted by Skeezyks
Hello emijec: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I certainly understand what you've written here. The Skeezyks has been there many times.  I still find myself there... particularly now because spring always seems to be a particularly tough time for me.
Personally, what get's me up is sheer force of will plus the fear of where the bottom would be if I ever gave in to my desire to hide.  I don't have any great suggestions for you as far as how to get over what you are feeling, other than to say that perhaps there is something wrong in your life... something that is not working for you. And, if that is the case, if you can figure out what it is, & change it, perhaps things will get better for you.
In my case, I pretty-much know what causes me to want to simply hide under the covers.  Unfortunately, it's too late to do anything about any of it. Hopefully that is not the case with you. I send warm thoughts your way with the hope that you may, in some way, be able to find the inner strength to overcome...  |
Well I experienced a bad relationship that ended up in me getting dumped. The last month of it I felt like he messed with my head or lead me on. I'm an overanalyzer and I am heartbroken. of course the feeling of depression is not only that but whether i'll ever change. I've been called "negative" by 3 different people, but one was from a habitual cheater, the other a drug addict, and the last... well an alpha. I wonder at my age, 34, will I ever change at this point? and am I destined to pick the wrong people? I did imagine myself being with someone and having kids, but alpha was the closest I could get and he never talked to me again. that, new job in the non-profit mental health service field of all places.. all the people that I would reach out to help I know have to network with ..awkward. my ex-boss's son died, he was 30. it just made me realize that time goes by so fast. I have mixed feelings here. getting dumped, starting work, ex boss's son passing away (who I briefly worked with but generally knew for 6 years).. it all happened Thursday 3/31.
I feel more anxious than depressed. depression was a ton of weight, but it's a 1/2 a ton and the other 1/2 is anxiety attacks consistently at 2-3 a.m. and then again at 6.
I should be on a couch with a therapist but I'm behind on bills and this first check and many to come will have to go to the past dues. that's what gets me up.
I'm there with you. I hope we can get through this.