for the past year or so, I have seriously deeply hated women. After my ex broke up with me last year, I felt very rejected. I still have times where i feel a mixture of emotions towards her and women in general. I look at my life and women have always abandoned me in some way. My mom is a narcissist and when ever i try to talk to her about my feelings she will ignore me and bring up something that happened in her life. really ****ing irritating.

I have deep hatred towards women and i hate my self as well. I never have positive thought any more about my self and i feel like im in a huge black pool of negativity. So hard to deal with this. I gained a lot of weight since the break up and now i'm even more rejected by women and they never smile or look at me.