<font color="purple"> I'm symptom free of ptsd these days. So I guess, since I don't fear certain things like parks where there are lots of trees, especially pine trees. This used to bother me a lot. Parks full of trees, especially out in the country types like rural areas. I was raped in a park multiple times and mostly tramatized outside and kept out of it when inside so I didn't try to escape. I can't say why or what exactly happend to me since its rather hard for me to speak about considering illegal activites were a probably a part of those moments. I didn't commit any crimes but being drugged was considered my fault just because the police didn't know what happened to me. I'd rather not ever retell all that happened in detail anyways. Not here. Still, I wonder if the right circumstances (triggers) occurred, that my ptsd would return??? </font>