Gosh how brave to write it al down, I admire you so much, itmust have taken a lot of bottle to face your demons like that. I can offer a shoulder and my ears anytime, You have been through such a lot.
Different problems, but sexual and emotional abuse all my life basically, bad relationship with my mother also, not particularly good with my father either. that we have in common.
I see you as a strong, articulate person, you sound as though you have gone from strength to strength, it takes a lot of courage to do what you have done, feel free to pm me anytime, you have found a good support site here at pc.

love, Jinnyannxoxoxoxoxo