I too am on anti depressants, my story has been published on the psych central personal story board, don't know how you get to it. there is so much more, just condensed it. I know how you feel, sort of, I was on Prozac and it nearly killed me, made me have suicidal thoughts, not the same for everyone though. I have a Therapist now, she is great, but I'm re-living everything at the moment and feel like I'm between 8 and 15 somewhere at the moment. I am 42!!! Just another positive note, people who go through such trauma in life, always end up caring, compassionate people, so something good came out for us both I'd say.

Take care my friend, speak soon

Jinny/Kerry xoxoxoxoxoxo