Thanks everybody, well I'm still thinking about her on a regular basis. The thought of her going on vacation with another man makes me cringe. I'm still getting out and walking this helps. Also, I actually looked at match.com but really haven't taken any action. It seems so daunting right now - self defeating I know. I hope this just drops off the map some day - sad to fall so hard and then wish you'd never met the person. Life is weird and painful that's my experience. Still trying to be strong for what it's worth. Thanks.