Yup i totally relate, many people probably think i'm a "psycho" lol. For some reason i have a lot of friends though (probably says a lot of their mental state as well), even though i've been in multiple fights with probably every single one of them. Most people know i'm fine as long as i'm not drinking or high though. I was worse when i was a teenager. I got to give it to my friends though, they've really been accepting of who i am, and some of them seem to get a kick out of my craziness in a sick way haha. i focus on a very healthy lifestyle, intense exercise, hobbies, diet, etc. it has helped i just need to stay off drugs which is hard. I also need to find a steady job and get back to school. I think my mood depends a lot on how i feel about myself at the time, i can admit a lot of my anger is just me redirecting it from myself to others. If i'm happy with myself i am very easy going.