Thanks so much everyone. The meds I came off of were invega, trileptal and hydroxizine. Prior to that I was on a heavy dose of lithium which really messed me up. It seems like when I was taking the meds I kind of relied on my anti-psychotic to stimulate my appetite and now that it's not there I don't want to eat.

I'm not sure how I feel about meds in general. I kind of think the pharma industry is evil, and just a form of mind control. I recently got medical marijuana so I've been medicating quite heavily with that and have been considering other plant medicines. I'm interested in treating my symptoms the natural way. I am not pro-medication. I hate doctors in general, I feel extremely uncomfortable in society, feel like an outsider...yeah. I just stay home a lot. I'm on SSDI and I don't do much. It's very lonely and I feel existentially panicked a lot of the time. I get outside and try to enjoy life however I can but it gets pretty dark sometimes.